|One Year Ago|
Dear Baby Girl,
Last year I celebrated the New Year in a hospital bed with only you and although I missed not being with your siblings at that moment you were the most important person in my life and the one beautiful soul I was meant to spend that time with. Life is full of moments, some are sweet and beautiful and others hurt and sting, but as long as we hold on to the beautiful ones it makes it all worth it. You dear one were a pleasant surprise, and a desire that I held in my heart for a very long time. God has blessed me with four beautiful children, and you are the last of the four. My Baby Girl, each of my children have a very special place in my life and my heart, and the Baby Girl place will forever be yours. This year has been one of a lot of change for our family, some of it not so pleasant, but we are learning and we are together and that is what matters. You were among those changes, you are the best and most beautiful thing that happened to us in this last year. Adding a fourth child to our family has been quite a challenge for Daddy and me, we are constantly tired and don’t seem to have enough time to get everything done that we think we must do, but you sweet girl have been a beautiful gift. You have been an incredibly easy baby, except when it comes to changing your diaper, you detest having that done and will try to escape. Daddy says that if you made diaper changing easy then you would be perfect and since nobody can be perfect that is why diaper changing is such a challenge. I guess I must agree with him.
You are also extremely loved. I hope you always know that. Daddy and I love you very much, as do your siblings, your Tita, Tutu, and your grandparents. You have two older brothers and one older sister. Although you seem to enjoy them all, you seem to have a very special bond with your youngest older brother. He makes you laugh and smile just by simply coming near you. He calls you his baby and truly believes you are his. You are 19 months apart and I know in my heart that you will always have a special bond. I pray that you always support each other and best of all that you stay friends for a lifetime. Your Big Sister adores you, I think she truly thinks that you are a living doll. She loves to hold you, even though you don’t always like it. Her biggest complain is that you can’t play all the games she likes to play right now. I am so happy that you will have her as your sister. I always wanted a sister but that was not God’s plan for my life and I feel so blessed that He felt that you and your sister should have each other. Then there is your Oldest Brother, the Big brother to all of you. He is so smart and talented, and I know that you will think he is an amazing guy as you grow up. You will look up to him and he will protect you. He loves you and helps me with you whenever I need him to.
At one year old you currently have the following words: agua, night-night, Dada, Aya (your sister). You have started walking independently although you still can’t walk with shoes on your own. Inside the house you walk barefoot and are able to take several steps without falling. Outside you still need hand holding and you have gotten some good practice this last week with your great grandma (abuelita Chelo).
You love to be outside and if you know somebody is going outdoors you want to go with them. You also like to eat although at the moment you only have three teeth. One on top and two on the bottom. You like to play patty cake, you start to rock side to side when you hear music, and you are quite the loud talker. You also know what you want and will go after it regardless of who has it. You are a healthy baby and for that I am truly grateful to our Father in Heaven who has made you that way.
Each day with you is a gift and a blessing. I pray that you learn to love God and to follow Him all the days of your life. I look forward to watching you grow, learn, and play, and as we walk this journey together I pray that God gives me the wisdom to be the best mommy to you that I can possibly be. Looking forward to our next New Year together sweet girl. New Year has taken on a whole new meaning to me, because with each New Year we will also be celebrating your life each year.